I am not afraid.

I don't know how accurate the fortune teller is.

I don't know how true what Gin.Sim had said about diamonds.

But I know I am feeling stronger.

But I know I am not as afraid anymore.

But I know I am feeling healthier.

But I know my life is more on track now.

Received an email from Emma (only after a week after it was sent)

Apparently, 23th June is Saint John's Day in Spain.

She left me a touching email that I promised

that I will not post it anywhere...

As My Chemical Romance sings the Famous Last Words,

Now, I know that I can't make you stay,

But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know there's nothing I can say,
To change that part.
To change that part.
To change...

So many bright lights that cast a shadow,
But can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete?

A life that's so demanding,
I get so weak.
A love that's so demanding,
I can't speak.

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

Can you see my eyes are shining bright?
'Cause I'm out here on the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror.
And I'm so weak.

Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete?
A love that's so demanding,
I get weak.

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.

These bright lights are always blinding me.
These bright lights are always blinding me.

I say

I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I'll never speak
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead?

(I can see ,I see you lying)

'Cause I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I'll never speak

Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead?   (x3)

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.
(Or dead!)
Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiving.
Nothing you can say could stop me going home.
(Or dead!)