I am in school. I still feel the ache. People just cannot understand.
They are asking asking asking. I do not want to answer. I do not
even want to fake a smile. Why bother? I want to seclude myself.
I want everyone to just pass me by without a word. I do not want
to guess if they care. I know they do not. I want to get my job done.
Go home like nothing happened. Teach like nothing happened. Talk
like nothing happened. Scream like nothing happened. Just do not
ask me to smile. There is nothing to smile about. I laid out my
feelings to Bear and bade him goodbye. I do not want to see and
smile again. There is no point. There is no difference. I just cannot.
The hurt is overwhelming. The ache is not leaving. My life is shit.
