I could not wake up this morning but I managed to call in sick.
I did not end up sleeping forever but I am still hurting. Somehow,
a huge part of me is numb. My soul has left me. I was there with
the coffee in my hand, as the coffee spilled over my legs, I could
hardly feel the heat. I felt no sensation, just confusion. What just
happened? Bear said that being strong is to face whatever without
escaping. How can I even escape? They are my realities and even if
I close my eyes and will them away, they remain. Can there be happy
thoughts again? I need a distraction. None. I cannot function properly.
I cannot figure what went wrong. Maybe I am on the wrong side of the road.
