feel like crying...

i am not depressed...yet i feel like crying...if i stay in my room, the mess in there can be such an eye-sore, it makes me want to cry...i switched on the computer, chris.S wrote me a beautiful email, felt really touched...almost cried...d. was supposed to arrive this morning, but apparently not...can't reach him at all...i am worried...to tears...still i have not cried...what a morning...