depressed but....

thought it reached its peak...i stood on the red stool he bought me...the first thing he bought me...i looked down...it looked different from all the time i sneaked smokes...perhaps it is higher on the stool...suddenly it was much clearer than usual...i stood there scared...my breathing hastened...my body shivered, shaking...it was a plain white blank...i smoked...i smoked...soon the pack was almost gone...it started to swirl...my lungs expanded and contracted in an irregular manner...but really speedily...i cannot breathe...below, everything was in a chaotic order, orderly mess...i watched the mini people busying around...i watched the mini vehicles appearing, disappearing...gone............